Wednesday, April 25, 2012

What Can I Bring?

I love music.  I love to sing.  It just soothes my soul!  This song has been my theme song this week, so I just wanted to share!

Monday, April 23, 2012

Kick It In the Shins!

FEAR.  That word has been tumbling around in my head for days.  I just can't shake I'm going to delve into it. 

Fear is a huge motivator - sometimes good and sometimes bad.  Good, healthy fear keeps us from jumping rope on the edge of a cliff or eating glass!  Good fear shows our respect for our God, our elders, our leaders.  But bad fear wreaks havoc.  It lies and manipulates us into thinking we are less than we are.  It backs us into a corner and holds us captive.  Unfortunately, it has become a major factor in society today.  Think of how many things we do and don't do that are motivated by fear.  We've become "helicopter parents", afraid to let our kids explore, learn and test the world around them.  Fear seeps into the decisions we make about what we eat, drive, buy, where we go, what we do, even our major political parties have figured out that the best way to win is to strike fear into the hearts of the constituency!  Too often we are afraid to be real, open, honest and to allow people to see us for who we really are. 

Be honest, how much of what you do is motivated by fear?  More importantly, how much of what you DON'T do?  Too many times we shrink back because we fear that we aren't smart enough, strong enough, educated enough, pretty enough, talented enough, we aren't worthy of living out the dreams that God placed in our hearts.  I don't know about you, but I have some pretty big dreams buried deep inside!  They scare me!  How in the world could I ever accomplish those things?  I'm just a little stay-at-home Mom who barely went to college, I don't have a big career, I don't have a bunch of money, I'm not perfect!  You know what?  It's time to let the fear go.  It's time to give fear a swift kick in the shins and flee from it!

It's time to leave fear behind and run after your dreams, your visions, your heart!  Sometimes it starts out really small, taking one baby step at a time.  That's where I am.  Giving my fear to God, walking forward in obedience and taking tiny steps towards becoming the wife, mother, servant, woman of God that I can see standing at the end of the road smiling at me telling me to just keep walking forward in faith, in confidence and without fear.

Monday, April 16, 2012

It has to start somewhere....right?

So, as I was sitting on my bum on my nice, comfy couch, I started listing all of the excuses for not starting my blog.  I don't know where to begin, I don't know what to say, I'm not sure I have time, what if I say the wrong thing, it doesn't look right yet, I really have absolutely no idea what I am doing, blah, blah, blah!  Then it dawned on me - my true excuse - it isn't PERFECT.  Hmmm....yeah.  I love when you get a huge slap on the forehead from the Man Upstairs!  Let us back up for a moment...

I am a "recovering" perfectionist.  I had {have} this need for perfection.  I like my house clean, organized, everything in its place.  I like order in my life.  I like things and people to be on time.  I want my recipes to come out just right.  I really want to say and do the right thing.  Oh, and it would really make life so much easier if everyone else would just be perfect too! {Insert laughter!}

To make a long story short, I now have a husband and four kids.  That's probably enough said, right?  Perfection flew out the window a long time ago!  However, it has actually been a hard-fought battle and the war isn't over.  Why am I fighting against perfection you ask?  What's wrong with wanting to be perfect?  Well, let me lay it on the line....

There is no such thing as a perfect human being.  Yep, I said it.  Not me, not you, not your neighbor, not your spouse, not your friends, not your enemies, not your pastor, not his wife, not your kids, and certainly not my kids!  How can you worry, stress and fret over something that simply is not possible?  Now don't get me wrong, I believe more than anything that we should all strive to grow, to stretch, to become better people day by day.  We can never stop learning, growing and allowing ourselves to be shaped and molded into the people God has us to be.  But for me, my focus for too long was {is} on myself and perfection.  I was looking to the wrong place and I was looking for the wrong thing.  So, I'm slowly changing and I'm allowing you in on the journey....